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Thursday, July 05, 2007
i think this entry will be full of whines and emo-ing.
i did disastrously bad for jct. it was really a disaster. it's kind of like if i add the marks of 3 of my subjects. i most prob get 120+ kind of thing. im a sad bob. i studied a lot for this jct. and the results are much worse than promos. i wonder if it's us or it's the paper. some people can do pretty well for this jct. while the majority are all traumatised and feeling sulky. i wonder. i wonder... the teachers are all so disappointed in us. they were scolding us the entire day. and they dont really scold us that seriously. probly the first time. and from their facial expressions. i can sense that they are seriously very worried. i am disappointed too. and i wonder if yesterday's contact time was a sign that our results suck so we must learn stress management. today left class early for syf presentation rehearsal. reached co room and a bunch of ppl were sitting in one corner. emo-ing. i guess everyone is so sad abt the results. i was sadd too. and i probably had I AM DEPRESSED written on my face. plus the performance was very disastrous. and this sort of worsened my mood. it was fun watching people perform. and we thought we would put up a good show like we did on syf. but we didnt. and the other schools are probly mocking at us and our standard. we sort of screwed up real bad. as in. seriously bad. didnt really feel like returning to the audience seat to continue the rest of the rehearsal. just felt like digging a hole and going home. what made me even more angry was the technical run. initially we lined up for the go-in-thru-the-second-row format. but when we went on stage. we were sort of stunned cos they obviously didnt leave a path for us to cross from percussion side. so we had to go in thru the third row. and that made us look very disorganised and messy. that was the first thing that made me angry. then. the conductor had to cross thru this tiny path from my row. it looked totally not nice. then. we screwed up the performance. i was damn sad. my mood was like collapsed la. i felt so tired. so disgusted by everything. i think i had a I VE HAD ENUFF look. the bus ride back to school felt especially long. i just wanted to go home. have a good sleep. and hope everything will turn out fine during the last minute practice tmr. aha ive spread the emo-ness to xf the "cupcake" maker. i am so tired. i am totally worn out. i need a break. if having a break would improve the very pessimistic condition. give me a kitkat. =) |
